Starving for the playoffs

So at the turn of the new year I decided that I would commit to a 10 day fast. I had done this last year and generally enjoyed the experience so I felt that it would be a good idea. Let me start out by saying that fasting can be incredibly productive and beneficial if done correctly. Let me also say that I do not believe I am capable of fasting correctly. I was (and am) able to give up eating solid foods fairly easily. This came as a surprise during my first fast. I love food and didn't think I could give up eating for one day let alone 10. The problem wasn't in giving up the food it was in giving the time to seek God while giving up the food. I came to this realization when on day 4 I was given the choice of being able to eat and not watch the playoff games or continue fasting and watch the playoff games. I actually chose to keep starving myself so that I could watch football. This is something that I am not proud of, but I feel is pretty revealing of my nature. I can be very dedicated and follow something to the point of being hazardous to my health, but I don't want to give up the things that I really like because it is inconvenient. I believe someone put it quite poetically when they said "What I want to do I don't do and What I do I don't want to do" (Thanks to Paul.) And that was my main complaint of the fast. Fasting was getting in the way of me being able to spend time with my friends because I couldn't eat. Fasting was inconvenient. And this brings me to my point and the lesion I have gleaned from all of this. I had trouble during the fast not because of the food but because it hindered my ability to do what I want. And isn't that what a fast is all about in the first place? We are meant to fast so that our will can be replaced with His will and no amount of not eating will fix this if we are still doing what we want to do. Next year maybe instead of not eating I will finally try to give up the thing that tends to take a large chunk of my day away... watching the TV.